I have a problem I’m just beginning to admit: I want to fix people. I want to fix people by giving them a book, loaning them a CD, reading them a scripture passage. I want to fix people because their pain makes me feel so helpless. So, basically, I want to fix people because I want to make myself feel better. That takes a lot to admit. Because, after all, I’m a Chaplain now; I should know what I am doing. Well, maybe I don’t, completely, but I am learning.
- I am learning that sometimes sitting with someone watching their garden and listening to music is better than trying to find the right words or prayers.
- I am learning that if a patient is upset it is important to lean into the pain with them and wipe their snot, not look the other way and change the subject.
- I am learning that there is no perfect book or prayer or scripture and sometimes simply admitting out loud that you are angry with God can be a prayer worth praying.